Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Struggle Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome
It began on a gloomy Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sudden pain sprang behind my right eye. It was followed by rapid stabs, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the pain eased and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.
The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon forming an annual cycle. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-on agony in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.
This condition often begin with intense pain around one eye that lasts for several hours.
About 1 in 1000 people are affected by the disorder, and males are more often affected. Attacks usually start with abrupt, excruciating pain around a single eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; others have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the lack of extended pain-free periods.
What connects patients is the severity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.
One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, like several causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.
Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.
Still, the failure to plan life around unpredictable pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been described throughout history. “The first account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an evil spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.
Historical medical records propose unusual remedies for what modern observers would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a distinct disorder, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.
It was a European physician who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.
Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by international medical committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major artery which delivers blood to the brain. Prominent experts in treating the condition note this.
In the late 1990s, researchers released the findings of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, published in a major journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.
In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple operations before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor looked up his complaints.
Specialists say delays in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary head pain conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific features such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.
Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode eased.
National guidelines on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which apparently helps manage the attacks of some people.
But leading neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer treatment process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the cycle determines the approach.” Short bouts with infrequent attacks are managed with abortive therapy only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the side of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.
The official guidelines need revising to reflect a